Denial.

I have earned my freedom.
It doesn't matter who was right and who was was wrong,
I made the choice to leave
And start a new life
Without you.
But I keep finding myself
Reading through old emails,
Text messages and
Facebook posts
Trying to find some semblance
Of the good people we were.
And the truth is,
we weren't.
You made me defend every decision I ever made.
And every decision you ever made.
You conned me into believing you'd love me forever.
And I took the bait.
We were fire and oil and we burned too brightly and too quickly,
Though neither of us could contain the blaze,
The truth is
I enabled your bad decisions.
You tried to enable mine and when I tried to stop short you'd push me further and further toward the edge.
Until I made the right decision.
To leave.
But you can't let me leave.
You'd rather lie and con your way back into my life.
I've had worse.
I've had worse.
Don't think I haven't had worse.
I'm a survivor.
And I will survive this.
My track record isn't perfect
And my legs are tired from running,
So I'll meet you head on.
And when the fire burns out I will rise like a Phoenix from the ashes.
I will rise above you and this and fly.
I won't turn around.
Not for fear of turning into a pillar of salt,
No.
I won't look back because you don't deserve it.
I have earned my freedom.
I chose freedom.
I won't be looking through old love letters anymore.
I won't be hanging on to misguided hope.
Do what you have to do.
You just don't have permission to drag me down with you.