Elk.

I wanted
To slow dance with you like junior prom.
Let you
Take my hand and walk me across the street.
Help you
Live in the now, under the endless sky.
But I let you
Watch me walk away.
I curled up next to you
In sleep, trusting everything.
I know I wasn't wrong.
You cradled me like I was the only one.
I drank you in the first night,
Letting you let me let go.
I could have gave it all to you.
Time heals everything, it's just too bad I'm
Too impatient.
So I let you watch me walk away
Only
I haven't walked very far.
You're a
juxtoposition,
With your subtle colors so close to mine.
And yeah,
I'm a barefoot goddess
Padding after a strong but silent type.
I'm learning to watch where my feet fall
Instead of letting you catch my clumsiness.
I'll tell you in a few words or less,
That this wasn't about you,
But I'll know, inside
I'm stopping myself from showing up at your door,
Light-footed and breathless,
Teeth and lips and toungue
Seeking yours
For validation.
I wish my words
Could stop you dead in your tracks
And conquer your fear.
But, just like the sure footed elk,
I'm afraid my sudden movements
Will cause you to spirit away from me
So I'm standing here.
Saying everything I ever wanted to say.
Hoping you're listening with a full heart.
Willing you to hear it.
Hoping,
Wanting.
Waiting.